[whitwhewgirl]

I'm trying to find answers now to what's going on. I don't suffer from pain as much as I do rage. Every other month I'm out of control!!! I have a cyst on my right ovary that ruptures every now and then and I have great deal of pain when it does. But the RAGE is uncharacteristic of me and I can't control it. It scares me really bad and it's every other month. It has to have something to do with what my bodies producing from that ovary... HAS to! I've tried medication which only seems to increase the quickness to snap. It's only for a day or maybe two days. I'm emotional and cry 2 days before and that 3rd day I snap!!!! I set my 9 year old out and made her walk home because of one of her tantrums. That was 2 months ago... today I was so angry with my 13 yr old I ripped his bookbag open like I was heman because I was so angry with him over losing his school project he did last night.... OUT OF CONTROL!!! scares me, seriously! I do have some sort of hormonal imbalance that was found yesterday that I'm taking an antibiotic but I can't imagine that has anything to do with this rage. I'm a sweet natured, good hearted person who's an active follower of Jesus. I can calm anything situation. I don't know what causes this demon in me. and it's like I watch in 3rd person.