I'd say for the past eight or nine years now, my pms has progressively gotten worse to the point there I'm suicidal, hopeless, I get so mean and nasty with my boyfriend, my face blows up with acne, and I always get stabbing pain on the right side of my abdomen. Always the right side, I don't ever recall it hurting on the left. I don't have children, so I wouldn't know what contractions are, but occasionally it feels like my uterus is going into a charliehorse. It could be triggered from me standing up too fast, or bending down, or sometimes it just happens on its own. It hurts so bad that I have to stop whatever I'm doing and let it ride itself out because I can't function otherwise. That mainly happens when I'm ovulating or just getting ready to have my period, but sometimes it just happens randomly throughout the month. When it comes to sex, it hurts a lot when we first engage in it, but then it gets better. The pain never goes away, it just becomes more tolerable.
Another thing that is alarming to me is the fact that we've never managed to get pregnant. It's not that we really have tried much with the actual intend to get pregnant, but we don't use birth control or condoms or the like. I just find it odd that in seven years of an active, unprotected sexlife, there hasn't been any kind of scare in that department.
Also, from about twenty-one to about twenty-three, I was in and out of psychiatric hospitals for a mental condition that has since gotten very under control - without the use of meds... I'm so glad for that now. I hated taking those pills - but I think back, and everytime I had an episode that required me to either seek medical attention or be admitted to the psych hospital, I was on my period. All three of my suicide attempts were done when I was on my period. I've often wondered if there is a connection to it, but my doctors never looked that far I don't think. I had to tell them what I thought my "official" diagnosis could be, and they agreed and proceeded from there with treatment.
I turn over all these details in my head and try to make some kind of connection, but I can't quite figure it out. Like right now, I have INSANE cramps, but I'm not due for another two-ish weeks. I just don't understand. Does any of this sound familiar to anyone? Any and all suggestions and/or replies are incredibly appreciated. I'm at my wit's end, and I don't have insurance to see another doc about this anymore. Thank you for your time.
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