So, I had my annual pap this morning. I've never once in my life had anything odd during my exams or paps.
While my Dr was examining me, he asked me how my periods have been. I told him, like clockwork, every 23-25 days, however they've been quite a bit heavier the last year than they have in the past and don't even ask me about PMS because it is horrible. I dread life at certain points during the month.
He looked up at me while he was feeling around and told me that my uterus was extremely large and wants to get me in for an ultrasound. Which, yeah, probably explains some things. Bad back aches, heavy bleeding, painful sex at times, etc.
So then we started talking about PMS/PMDD. He recommended that I start taking a low dose pill for 3 months to see how it affects my PMS. I told him that wouldn't be my first option because I got my tubes tied for a reason, to get off birth control... He asked me if I didn't get my tubes tied would I still be on the pill. My answer with no hesitation is Yes. As much as I didn't care for them, I would still be on them. I never wanted to take my chances with any other option, knowing I do not want anymore kids, I don't even want the chance of anymore kids. He told me he would like me to try it but to get my rear back in and see him if it doesn't help.
So... I walked out of the office with 3 months of BC... It is sitting hear, on my desk, staring me in the face. I'm still just kind of dumbstruck by my visit anyways. I'm worried over the whole uterus thing. I'm not even googling it because next thing I know, it will say Death by Uterus or something of the same. I'm mad about the prospect of even contemplating going back on the pill, even though I've had a tubal. Stupid hormones, stupid body, stupid uterus, lol.
I don't know what to do at this point. Try the pill and improve my PMS/PMDD? Try the pill and risk another go around of a drop in my libido? UGH... I just don't know.
You know what I mean? All that just to go off birth control, and now to go back on it again just to alleviate a few symptoms?
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