I think my hormones are just going bonkers. Suddenly my sex drive is well, I am insatiable. Problem is I am not in a relationship right now, but let me shed some insight on my situation first.
I'm 49 and definitely pre-menopause (periods 3x year). I am the only parent of 5 yr. old twins --yes late bloomer here
. I have been celibate for about 6 yrs. due to not being in a relationship b/c of exhaustion, lack of interest, motherhood stuff, etc.
A few years ago my ex-boyfriend (from now it's been 15 yrs. ago) contacted me out of the blue. He's 55 now. We were crazy about each other but due to a bunch of stupid things split up. I moved away from the area completely got married, got divorced, and eventually had my kids. We've been in email contact for the past 3 years and have spoken several times on the phone. We think about meeting and then get cold feet (the old maybe this is a bad idea, impractical, etc. ) and both back off. Then we seem to reconnect again. I know he dates, but he's not married or in a relationship. I have his home phone number and he has mine so no secrets.
We talked again last week and had a nice (but at times uncomfortable) candid conversation about our feelings about week ago and I told him I am planning on visiting another friend next summer who lives a few towns over. I live many hours away so this is a big trip/vacation type thing. Bottom line is that we are meeting up.
Anyway....ever since the night of our conversation I cannot stop thinking about sex with him. It's like my body has suddenly sprung to life. I was a sexual person before having kids but I was thinking my sex drive is supposed to be going down as I approach menopause not skyrocketing!!!! And since I'm not in a relationship I have to make do with myself.
I was at the point where I was getting quite worried I had some kind of problem but now I think maybe my body is just "waking up" after all of these years because of my feelings about the ex-BF. If KWIM?
Any thoughts? Thanks. And sorry it got so long.
I'm 49 and definitely pre-menopause (periods 3x year). I am the only parent of 5 yr. old twins --yes late bloomer here
. I have been celibate for about 6 yrs. due to not being in a relationship b/c of exhaustion, lack of interest, motherhood stuff, etc. A few years ago my ex-boyfriend (from now it's been 15 yrs. ago) contacted me out of the blue. He's 55 now. We were crazy about each other but due to a bunch of stupid things split up. I moved away from the area completely got married, got divorced, and eventually had my kids. We've been in email contact for the past 3 years and have spoken several times on the phone. We think about meeting and then get cold feet (the old maybe this is a bad idea, impractical, etc. ) and both back off. Then we seem to reconnect again. I know he dates, but he's not married or in a relationship. I have his home phone number and he has mine so no secrets.
We talked again last week and had a nice (but at times uncomfortable) candid conversation about our feelings about week ago and I told him I am planning on visiting another friend next summer who lives a few towns over. I live many hours away so this is a big trip/vacation type thing. Bottom line is that we are meeting up.
Anyway....ever since the night of our conversation I cannot stop thinking about sex with him. It's like my body has suddenly sprung to life. I was a sexual person before having kids but I was thinking my sex drive is supposed to be going down as I approach menopause not skyrocketing!!!! And since I'm not in a relationship I have to make do with myself.
I was at the point where I was getting quite worried I had some kind of problem but now I think maybe my body is just "waking up" after all of these years because of my feelings about the ex-BF. If KWIM?
Any thoughts? Thanks. And sorry it got so long.
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