[Anon_1990]

I guess I was a lot more serious around her, I wouldnt tease her and crack jokes about her, or jokingly insult her, and she likes that. I guess I just didn't want to do anything wrong.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

I think you were on tender hooks, walking on egg shells, through fear of loss..

And, you know what? You have to be 100% yourself with someone, that's how it will always work... they see "you" the "real you"...

Maybe this is a lesson? For you to learn for future... be you sweet.

Don't fear, like I said on your other thread, people come into our lives for a reason, we find more than 1 soul in our lives, your journey has just begun, regardless that you can't see that now, you will.

[5thelement]

It's a physical release, your mind and body are trying to get some relief from the grief. Orgasm released endorphins which help elevate your mood and that's good for you.
I know it's hard and painful but consider that this hyper-emotional response doesn't actually help anything past a certain point. Some researchers a few years back did report that they had found the crying does relieve stress, typicall 40-60% for most people. There is nothing wrong with having a good cry or two but then you have to start trying to move on. Exersize can really help you relieve your distress, work up a good sweat. Get out with some friends, go places, do things, try to help someone else - that can really help pull you out of yourself. It will take time but you can't just dwell in it. Do you know how many millions of women there are in the world? Billions actually, it may not feel like it right now but there are whole bunch of them you could be very happy with and who would be delighted to have your caring and love.

This is very true! When my husband passed away my sex drive was out of control and still is! It's crazy! It has been almost 3 years since he has been gone. I have moved on and I am very happy. It is part of life's learning experiences. Be glad because it happened and you know what your capable of. Look at it as an eye opening, life learning, experience! It won't be the last time either. You will become smarter and wiser for it! What if it never happened? It would be a valuable loss.

[emptypea2001]

Absolutely, stress causes most people to masturbate more frequently - the endorphin thing helps for a while.

[Anon_1990]

Its getting to like 4-6 a day..

[Anon_1990]

It just helps so much, it feels so good, you just got to think and she is there doing everything for you.

This kind of masturbation is known in England, well, in not very well known slang "Cranking"