[Guest]

I do not know why I enjoy pornographic movies so much. I have got a dozen of them given by my friends. My husband goes on a long business trip and I am stranded alone. I am jobless now and living like a homing bird with no sex and with my dreams deferred until his arrival and sometimes it is weeks and I am starving here. I masturbate but the thrill of man doing is something different. There are local boys who often tease me and try to plunder inside. Btu this is morally wrong and I do not want to cheat on him. We are together after a short separation and feel fine. But to be honest my fiery urged remains insatiated. I am Horney mostly and my libido is very powerful. I sweat at night and imagine about some local boys making this sex-stuff. This life is precious and I cannot put off my thirst indefinitely. I do not know what my husband does outside. He has a lot of money and can have women. But I do not know this with any proof to suspect.

I am in a predicament. Maybe as usual you have many advices but no solution to satisfy my wild desire. I am addicted to porn now and I do not know how it will end up.

[jns]

wanton, I'm sorry about your situation. The continuous use of porn is not desirable, however I don't see it as immoral. It is not desirable due to it's addictive properties and it giving an unrealistic view of relationships and body types. Some religions would brand it immoral.

Do you not dream of your husband doing the things you dream of the local boys doing?

[ren_07]

I don't think you're worried about whether or not watching porn is immoral. I think what troubles you is your fantasies/ideas of having sex with others around you that are not your husband. If you are still attracted to your husband sexually and know he could feed your appetite if he was around more often and willing, I would find a way to address this with him. I think you both seem to have some issues you're ignoring to make it work, you've expressed a lack of trust in his activities away from you on business trips.

Porn can be addictive. Does your husband know you watch it?

I think this sex drive is being fueled by the fact that you're home alone a lot and have too much time to focus on it and engage in the porn. It could be an escape from the loneliness and neglect you feel in your relationship. I'd suggest finding more ways to get out and enjoy yourself and perhaps consider a part-time job, just to give you something to do. Maybe convince your husband to spend less time away from you or go out together as a couple more and engage with others socially.

[rcoreyus]

I think there are a couple of things to think about:

Are you watching porn instead of having sex with your husband when he is available? If so, that is a problem.

Do you feel "driven" to watch porn, or do you "enjoy" watching it? If the first, that is a problem.

Does watching porn interfere with other parts of your life - do you stay up late and lose sleep? Watch instead of spending time with friends or doing other things?

If none of those is happening, then I wouldn't be worried. It is just a masturbation aid when your husband is out of town.

[caterpillar79]

Can't you, once in a while join him in his business trip? That way, you can have time together out-of-town. And maybe, you can use all your reserves to make each night unforgettable for both of you.

[LanaBear]

Wanton...

I thought you got a divorce?

https://www.womens-health.com/boards/general/35612-hi-i-am-back-now-story-bittersweets-share-all-you.html

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Didn't she also cheat on him?

Anyways, she can't reply anymore with different stories, so I guess, this thread is closed, seeing as there is no point leaving it open....