Okay, well. My boyfriend and I have been together since well, toddlers almost, we started having sex around the time we hit 15, knowing that we were really close and comfortable with each other. (Save judgement.)
Anyway, we're 19 now, we're engaged, we go to top colleges, we live together, and we're pretty set, happy, and well off with life, well, was. We used to have a pretty fiery sex drive, being the age we were and all. But now I'm changing, and it's affecting not only our sex life but, our once-was healthy relationship.
I've been less inclined to get sexual with him, and just in general. It's been going on for a little over a year now. But the biggest problem is that despite my obvious slow down with it all, he hasn't changed. He tries all the time and I just can't get in the mood for it. Sometimes I force myself to because, well, I feel bad for having to deny him all the time despite his constant efforts.
I have no problem masturbating by myself, but when it comes to doing something him.. I don't know. I just don't feel like it. I fantasize about it, so I know it's not me just not wanting him, I think. But every time he tries or pushes it.. I just get so uninterested. It's come to a point where hes almost given up on trying, each time I deny him he just gets sad. Which I don't want him to be sad, I don't what him to have to try to begin with.
Basically I just can't get in the mood enough to actually go for anything other then masturbating here and there. And it's really starting to complicate my relationship.
I'm just not sure if this is even normal for my age because I am young, but right now I feel like such an old unhappy cranky woman.
Anyway! Due to the extreme lack of womanly companionship in my life, I figured I might need advice from somewhere like here.
(Though, please save lectures about age or my life or anything else that might possibly come up. I'm comfortable with my life and how it's gone so far. Exploring and making mistakes along the way is what helps all of us grow, it's not always being careful and staying on the "right path" or being afraid to make the possible mistakes others have made. It's not about wanting to "grow up" or always have in the back of your mind that you still have years ahead, it's about now. Falling hopelessly in love and ****ing up and thinking you have everything you want, then doing it all over again with someone else. Mistakes happen, we're all stupid, we're all young, we're all reckless, and it's life. So please, save any trolling remarks or lectures about life for someone else like minded who thinks life needs to happen perfectly. /rantforanypossiblerants.)
Anyway, we're 19 now, we're engaged, we go to top colleges, we live together, and we're pretty set, happy, and well off with life, well, was. We used to have a pretty fiery sex drive, being the age we were and all. But now I'm changing, and it's affecting not only our sex life but, our once-was healthy relationship.
I've been less inclined to get sexual with him, and just in general. It's been going on for a little over a year now. But the biggest problem is that despite my obvious slow down with it all, he hasn't changed. He tries all the time and I just can't get in the mood for it. Sometimes I force myself to because, well, I feel bad for having to deny him all the time despite his constant efforts.
I have no problem masturbating by myself, but when it comes to doing something him.. I don't know. I just don't feel like it. I fantasize about it, so I know it's not me just not wanting him, I think. But every time he tries or pushes it.. I just get so uninterested. It's come to a point where hes almost given up on trying, each time I deny him he just gets sad. Which I don't want him to be sad, I don't what him to have to try to begin with.
Basically I just can't get in the mood enough to actually go for anything other then masturbating here and there. And it's really starting to complicate my relationship.
I'm just not sure if this is even normal for my age because I am young, but right now I feel like such an old unhappy cranky woman.
Anyway! Due to the extreme lack of womanly companionship in my life, I figured I might need advice from somewhere like here.
(Though, please save lectures about age or my life or anything else that might possibly come up. I'm comfortable with my life and how it's gone so far. Exploring and making mistakes along the way is what helps all of us grow, it's not always being careful and staying on the "right path" or being afraid to make the possible mistakes others have made. It's not about wanting to "grow up" or always have in the back of your mind that you still have years ahead, it's about now. Falling hopelessly in love and ****ing up and thinking you have everything you want, then doing it all over again with someone else. Mistakes happen, we're all stupid, we're all young, we're all reckless, and it's life. So please, save any trolling remarks or lectures about life for someone else like minded who thinks life needs to happen perfectly. /rantforanypossiblerants.)
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