My fiance was getting very irritated last night at the fact he couldn't make me orgasm. When we first started having sex, it probably took over a month on to figure out how to make me. And it wasn't easy. It still isn't. He can make me orgasm. Sometimes it's kind of quickly, other takes it takes a long time...
Last night we were having sex and I said he should make me cum first so he started going down on me and touching me, because that's usually what does the trick, but nothing. At first he was just fingering me and then I suggested he should also lick me. He rolled his eyes and I knew he didn't want to so I said he didn't have to. But he did it anyway. We sat there for a while. He kept telling me not to talk because that's probably what was getting in the way. After a while he said he was about to give up because he was getting irritated.
I was getting frustrated too at the fact he was getting so angry. So I told him to stop and just finish himself. And he said no. That's rude. I'm like whatever. I kept telling him to stop because nothing was gonna happen. But he continued licking and touching me roughly. I started to cry because I knew he was irritated with me. Again after 5 or 10 minutes, nothing. Even though I felt close. He finally gave up.
I rushed to put my pants back on, he did the same and he said there staring into nothing as I laid back on the bed. I was almost ashamed of myself I guess. He was at the end of the bed sitting. You could tell there was a ton of tension between us, which upsetted me even more. So with my feet, I just began touching his legs. Trying to show him I wasn't mad. After 10 minutes of silence he finally said something along the lines of "If you truly loved me, it wouldn't be so hard to make you cum". So he was pretty much implying the reason I wasn't orgasming at that moment was because I didn't love him.
That's when I turned over and started crying. It was like this for maybe 15-20 minutes. Me crying, him sitting there. Finally he said he should leave. And he'll talk to me in a week or so. Which made me cry more. He started putting his shoes on and I grabbed him and I was crying. And it was really dramatic like that for 20 more minutes or so. When he gets so upset, he won't even comfort me while I cry. He kept telling me to let go of him, which I didn't. I was crying loudly.
Finally we got to talking about it and he said it shouldn't be so hard for him to make me cum. I told him I don't know any girls who it is easy for.. Then he said according to his (male) friends, they all make girls cum and scream so easily. I couldn't believe he was going to believe their ******** stories. Most of his friends are players and liars anyway. I asked him to go ask some girls to confirm his friends' stories. He said he'd rather not. Then I asked if he was aware of how many girls faked it. Then he said sometimes he wishes I did too. Which made me start crying again. He said he was joking but whatever. I told him I'll start faking it.
Then finally he told me not to expect sex for a very long time (even though we ended up making love 2 hours later).
The things he said broke my heart. I know my fiance is going through a lotttt right now. But I cannot believe he'd take it out on me like that. Already that morning I was feeling down and bad about myself..... And this just made me go over the edge. I wanted to remove that ring and I wanted to cut myself. I was ****ed at myself. I hate myself.
Maybe this is just venting. But it hurts that he assumes it's easy for every other female to cum. It made me feel like a piece of....
Things are a little better now, but I'm hurting still.
Last night we were having sex and I said he should make me cum first so he started going down on me and touching me, because that's usually what does the trick, but nothing. At first he was just fingering me and then I suggested he should also lick me. He rolled his eyes and I knew he didn't want to so I said he didn't have to. But he did it anyway. We sat there for a while. He kept telling me not to talk because that's probably what was getting in the way. After a while he said he was about to give up because he was getting irritated.
I was getting frustrated too at the fact he was getting so angry. So I told him to stop and just finish himself. And he said no. That's rude. I'm like whatever. I kept telling him to stop because nothing was gonna happen. But he continued licking and touching me roughly. I started to cry because I knew he was irritated with me. Again after 5 or 10 minutes, nothing. Even though I felt close. He finally gave up.
I rushed to put my pants back on, he did the same and he said there staring into nothing as I laid back on the bed. I was almost ashamed of myself I guess. He was at the end of the bed sitting. You could tell there was a ton of tension between us, which upsetted me even more. So with my feet, I just began touching his legs. Trying to show him I wasn't mad. After 10 minutes of silence he finally said something along the lines of "If you truly loved me, it wouldn't be so hard to make you cum". So he was pretty much implying the reason I wasn't orgasming at that moment was because I didn't love him.
That's when I turned over and started crying. It was like this for maybe 15-20 minutes. Me crying, him sitting there. Finally he said he should leave. And he'll talk to me in a week or so. Which made me cry more. He started putting his shoes on and I grabbed him and I was crying. And it was really dramatic like that for 20 more minutes or so. When he gets so upset, he won't even comfort me while I cry. He kept telling me to let go of him, which I didn't. I was crying loudly.
Finally we got to talking about it and he said it shouldn't be so hard for him to make me cum. I told him I don't know any girls who it is easy for.. Then he said according to his (male) friends, they all make girls cum and scream so easily. I couldn't believe he was going to believe their ******** stories. Most of his friends are players and liars anyway. I asked him to go ask some girls to confirm his friends' stories. He said he'd rather not. Then I asked if he was aware of how many girls faked it. Then he said sometimes he wishes I did too. Which made me start crying again. He said he was joking but whatever. I told him I'll start faking it.
Then finally he told me not to expect sex for a very long time (even though we ended up making love 2 hours later).
The things he said broke my heart. I know my fiance is going through a lotttt right now. But I cannot believe he'd take it out on me like that. Already that morning I was feeling down and bad about myself..... And this just made me go over the edge. I wanted to remove that ring and I wanted to cut myself. I was ****ed at myself. I hate myself.
Maybe this is just venting. But it hurts that he assumes it's easy for every other female to cum. It made me feel like a piece of....
Things are a little better now, but I'm hurting still.
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