I've had four sexual partners, 2 guys, 2 girls, emotionally invested in one of each gender, at the time of sex.
They are not all at the same time - they've been spaced apart by months and years. One female, I was in a committed relationship to for 3 years, emotionally involved, loved, the whole nine yards. The guy was a 2-month long thing, and the remaining two were 'friends with benefits' sort of thing that ended quickly because the 'with benefits' wasn't working at all for me.
I know I'm interested and aroused when watching their reactions, seeing them lose it, and I've experienced orgasm on my own, alone.
However, when they try to 'return the favor' during sex, I feel disinterested and often annoyed. Even when they're hitting spots that I KNOW I use on myself, it just feels like they're touching normal skin - nothing sexy about it.
what the hell.
Any ideas?
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