Not blowing my own trumpet but I am a great lady. Been one since thirteen. People stare but never found a guy. I am proud too and don't give pointers like some other girls would. Recently a guy said wait for your turn and I am like all men can go to hell especially the guy who would finally think he is doing me a favour to come and be the father of my children. I don't like girls either. I go online and meet really cool people and it keeps me company but I have no dime and those who do pretend the internet is not a necessity. I paint crazy pictures of coming out to say hey guys I am twenty four and I need a guy. But they can all go to hell cos there's more. The kinda guy I need is a fantasy. He is tall, handsome, romantic and sensual. However I have not met him yet in real life. Most of the best people are on tv, but that's not to say all, just that they are rare, or younger and all the girls, the most dangerous are watching. These days even guys.
Some guys have asked me out but I say no not because of looks but because I don't see a guy with passion. The guys with passion are online too. Passion really makes a guy act nice and right but if he is just trying to get a new girl and does not feel like it he is often a ****************************************. Besides I don't want a guy who does not at least look as good as I do. Presently I am not cleopatra but I do look good.
I really want to get back online where its fun, you meet people connect and say goodbye with a nice smile but it is not forth coming. I decided to give up on all this since I have become 'cinderella' who's cut off from every sense of affection and face other things. Recently something totally happened to my sex drive out of the blues. A short while after I prooved to myself seriously that all I need is my dream man. After a time of depression and sever sexual tension. I had a time just recently when privately I felt a peak and release sexually for a period. I felt it was new but I really reasoned that since I was in no relationship it was no good. Presently it died down after I had naturally dismissed the feeling. Presently I don't feel any form of sexual urges or excitement. It is totally dead. Null and void. I find this so shocking. I wish I never had an urge not to be neck deep and then have it cut off suddenly. I did not need the favour now. Would have come when I asked for it when I was much younger and felt moved by the thought of sex.
The feeling I had that span of time was really strong. I guess it was because I had a long break from having a lengthy sexual experience. I don't need to lie. My present numb sexual state is affecting my emotions abjectly. It was worse yesterday. Today my sexual feelings are totally absent. And the pain less.
I really need advice.
I don't need a man. All I need is health to return. As they say once bad can't go back.
Some guys have asked me out but I say no not because of looks but because I don't see a guy with passion. The guys with passion are online too. Passion really makes a guy act nice and right but if he is just trying to get a new girl and does not feel like it he is often a ****************************************. Besides I don't want a guy who does not at least look as good as I do. Presently I am not cleopatra but I do look good.
I really want to get back online where its fun, you meet people connect and say goodbye with a nice smile but it is not forth coming. I decided to give up on all this since I have become 'cinderella' who's cut off from every sense of affection and face other things. Recently something totally happened to my sex drive out of the blues. A short while after I prooved to myself seriously that all I need is my dream man. After a time of depression and sever sexual tension. I had a time just recently when privately I felt a peak and release sexually for a period. I felt it was new but I really reasoned that since I was in no relationship it was no good. Presently it died down after I had naturally dismissed the feeling. Presently I don't feel any form of sexual urges or excitement. It is totally dead. Null and void. I find this so shocking. I wish I never had an urge not to be neck deep and then have it cut off suddenly. I did not need the favour now. Would have come when I asked for it when I was much younger and felt moved by the thought of sex.
The feeling I had that span of time was really strong. I guess it was because I had a long break from having a lengthy sexual experience. I don't need to lie. My present numb sexual state is affecting my emotions abjectly. It was worse yesterday. Today my sexual feelings are totally absent. And the pain less.
I really need advice.
I don't need a man. All I need is health to return. As they say once bad can't go back.
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