[Jessica1801]

Hello my new online family. I am sorry I must seem like a total mess. See my other post about low sex drive for some more back story. Here are the cliff notes. I am marriedand two kids. For a while sex has-been the last thing on my mind. A few in the comments mentioned making any sexual contact be it with my self or my husband more about the moment and just enjoying it with having orgasm as a goal. If it happens great but not a requirement. A few weeks back I allowed myself some me time and almost got caught. The thrill of it drove my senses crazy and I had an orgasm for the first time in a long time. Now it seems like I am chasing that sensation again. I am embarrassed to be saying this but I still am not craving my husband because I am not sure he is on the same page. I know I need to talk to him but I am not ready. Two nights ago I went to the grocery store and forgot my list. I text my husband from the parking lot to send it to me list. I don't get reception inside. It was about 7 pm and the parking lot was not very busy. I was not parked directly beside anyone. The window was open and I had a sundress on. So I figured why not indulge. I let my fingers travel and omg my body was so alive. My husband text back and broke my focus but I can't stop thinking about it. I watched a few videos online of women masterbating in parking lots with cars going by but it didn't help. I wasn't turned on watching but It filled my head with ideas. Now I can't shake them. I saw one with women masterbating in dressing rooms. I feel half crazy. Should I allow myself to just go along for the ride or will it just get worse? Thoughts?

[jns]

Hello my new online family. I am sorry I must seem like a total mess. See my other post about low sex drive for some more back story. Here are the cliff notes. I am marriedand two kids. For a while sex has-been the last thing on my mind. A few in the comments mentioned making any sexual contact be it with my self or my husband more about the moment and just enjoying it with having orgasm as a goal. If it happens great but not a requirement. A few weeks back I allowed myself some me time and almost got caught. The thrill of it drove my senses crazy and I had an orgasm for the first time in a long time. Now it seems like I am chasing that sensation again. I am embarrassed to be saying this but I still am not craving my husband because I am not sure he is on the same page. I know I need to talk to him but I am not ready. Two nights ago I went to the grocery store and forgot my list. I text my husband from the parking lot to send it to me list. I don't get reception inside. It was about 7 pm and the parking lot was not very busy. I was not parked directly beside anyone. The window was open and I had a sundress on. So I figured why not indulge. I let my fingers travel and omg my body was so alive. My husband text back and broke my focus but I can't stop thinking about it. I watched a few videos online of women masterbating in parking lots with cars going by but it didn't help. I wasn't turned on watching but It filled my head with ideas. Now I can't shake them. I saw one with women masterbating in dressing rooms. I feel half crazy. Should I allow myself to just go along for the ride or will it just get worse? Thoughts?

It sounds like vanilla sex is no longer what gets you sexually excited. The possibility of getting caught is heightening the experience as is probably the setting. I am sure you are not focusing on what you need to do at home so the situation is keeping you from losing focus on what you are doing. Maybe being in charge of the whole situation is also part of it. Have you every been the one calling the shots with your husband?

[Jessica1801]

It sucks feeling so out of control in my own body

[Wednesday L.F.]

A lot of people enjoy public sex acts, either alone or with a friend. Practically speaking, you’ll want to consider things like accidental public nudity or being seen by others. While I can’t imagine that’s your goal, it could happen accidentally. As Lauren Boebert reminded us, not everyone wants to see public masturbation and consent is always required.

That said, there’s no reason not to indulge in your car if it’s private.