[Joy]

YOu can have him in your life....... as a friend... if he doesn't look at you the way you want to be looked at then let this go and let it come into your life.... If he doesn't kiss you the way you have been kissed and want to be kissed then let him go and allow it to come into your life. If he doesn't hold you the way you want to be held then let him go and allow it to come into your life.

YOU are settling my friend ... don't beat yoruself up ... we have all been there done that only some people men and women get stuck with the scraps instead of going for the steak.

we settle for a lil bit of love instead of none...

there is a quality you love about this man the good and the bad... but you deserve a man that is into you 100% and you to be into him 100%.... if its not that then why bother...

sorry if this sounds harsh... i'm at a point in my life where i'm done with the half hearted love... one day you will be too.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Thank you CW and you are right. I have been letting that stuff get to me and make me feel a little bit second rate even though he doesnt treat me that way at all. He treats me with so much respect and doesn't eye other pretty women in front of me or anything like that. He touches me all the time and compliments me and makes me feel like a million bucks. Its only since I saw those girls that are so much more pretty than me that I have felt like he must think I am rubbish by comparison.

He brings so much joy to my life on a daily basis in so many ways. I feel blessed. I know I have a low self-esteem and I guess I don't feel I am worthy sometimes, and seeing those beautiful women, it felt like it confirmed my worst fear of not being pretty enough. But I need to let that go, porn is what it is and I am not going to let that make me sad and insecure. Those women may be prettier but I'm the one he is making the conscious decision to be with so I need to let that speak for itself.

And , CW that was a good joke you added in about finding a guy that doesn't watch porn! :-) in what cave and alternative universe are they hiding those guys? Hehe.

I need to just mature a little bit on the self-image and relax and be thankful for each moment of happiness I get to experience.

Time... That's all it is. If he compliments you and respects you, makes you feel like a million dollars, doesn't eye off women in front you (respect), the longer you with him the more confidence you will have, you already know he loves you and he won't stray if you think about it.

Time.. Cause you know you take care of your body but in-securities, well go get your hair done and buy a dress. It's time to feel good about yourself, instead of the sweats and top everyday haha.. Or what ever you where.

Where are they hiding? Man don't ask me but my ex husband didn't, my boyfriend doesn't... Is that because I live in Australia? Joke......

Someone who watches porn and is disrespectful, thinks your fat and ugly, doesn't treat you the way your man is. He jut likes to look at it... There's a difference.

Smile.

CW