[caterpillar79]

I hope it turns out the way you expected it. Take a deep breath. Anyhow, take it as it is whatever happens.

You've come a long way to fall back now. seeing her though might re-hash old emotions that are slowly being healed. I am concerned though if you both would meet again for the crystal - it might re-hash old hurts.

Can you think of a way for you not to see each other and yet get the crystal she's returning?

[artist1633]

If she doesn't call then it may be because of the fear of the addiction to ourselves. If she doesn't call by the weekend, I will communicate again and ask if she can just leave it somewhere or with someone. You are right...I know I would be taken by her again if I saw her. The healing process feels so good, my heart is lighter now. My friends and colleagues have seen a big difference. Life is so very cool.

[caterpillar79]

Keep moving forward. Don't allow yourself to fall back.

[artist1633]

i have just returned home. Cat, give me some feed back on this. The following occurred about one hour ago. Went dancing, ex was there...sitting across the room. I ignored her.
At one point she approached close by the get a drink of water. I walked toward her, said her name with a smile. I felt bad vibes immediately. No smile, no look in the eye. She said, "don't harass me, don't disturb me on my free time." I didn't say a word except, "the crystal." She said, "they have a name for people like you, we'll arrange a time next week." She walked off.

I stayed and listened to music. She sat far off and left before me. Yes, I am ready to move forward. I really needed for this to happen. Not losing sleep over this any more.
Wow, what a deep anger she had. I am thoughtful about why she feels this way. Maybe she felt I was in her space. Anyway. Enough of this. curtains are closing on this relationship. Thanks for letting this be my outlet.