We're both 18, he's in the military and I'm starting college in a few weeks. We dated for a bit our Freshman year of HS, nothing serious at all (we held hands in a class) but we stayed friends. Sophomore & Junior year, we were best friends. We hung out, we talked, we hugged. The whole 9 yards.
Senior year. And boy was that a year. Started out like S/J year, just total best friends. Then he got distant a bit from me; he blamed it on different schedules. So whenever I saw him in the halls, I would give him a hug (it was kind of a thing we did). One day after school, I had stayed late for drama club. I was going from my locker towards the choir room. He had stayed after to finish a test. I went over to him and gave him a hug and he started walking me backwards. At first, I thought it was just funny and I squirmed. But then we got all the way down the hall, he grabbed my butt and then he gently pushed me against his locker. Our faces were super close and we were looking at each other for a moment before he said "Kiss Me" really seductively. So I got on my tip-toes and kissed him. (Best first kiss EVER!) But then I did something stupid and casually walked off to the choir room for drama club; my knees shaking with excitement the whole way and I never turned back to look at him. Another time we were playing tennis, I drove him home and we made-out a little in my car. He also wrote "I Love You" in my yearbook.
I feel so pathetic, but I think I've fallen for him. I fall very hard for guys, when I do fall. I dont know what to do. He consumes my mind and I miss him while he's at boot camp. My friends all say the same things. "Its cute" "You two are so perfect together" etc etc. Which is great, but it's also what I want to hear. Can anybody please tell me what their interp. of all this is? Thank you
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