[pretzel]

Ok, What is "fwb"? And "OP"?
I am seeing a councellor tomorrow morning. Hopefully she will be able to break through the barrier of whatever it is in my mind I can't get to. For some reason I just can't tell him off. I know I need to. Why can't I just open my mouth and say the words? I am very scared of what is waiting for me once I do. That I know. Been there before, you know.
Thanks for all your replies, I haven't even thought of the grandchildren part!! So I really appreciate the input.
PS: I am not hurting my kids on purpose, you know. Sometimes (don't know if you have ever been there) you just really don't know which way to turn for the best of ALL involved. Guess, I made a wrong turn.

Sorry, "fwb" is an acronynm for "friends with benefits". It's a relatively new term coined by the younger generation for a relationship between friends where sex is also part of the equation. Not necessarily a relationship though.

"OP" is short for Original Post(er).

To your comment, I bolded something which I think is pretty important to your dilema, that is the fear of what could happen. Hopefully your counselor will help with this.

[WildChild]

The thing is when you have kids and are dealing with something like this what comes first, foremost and outwieghs everything else, is what is best for your children? What is "best" for you is secondary, what is "best" for the man you married is a distant third. You are an adult and can make choices, your kids are dependant and have NO choice. It is your responsibility to act in their best interests at all times and in all things.