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how do you know how much progesterone to take?

[Evilin me]

Yaz and PMDD

Ive read responses and I feel like Im reading my own words, I also have PMDD, its gotten to the point that the love of my life has had enough and wants me and my 2 kids (from prev relationships) to move out........I have been fighting what I thought was depression since I can remember, anti depressant after anti depressant to mood enhancers to anti anxiety ......just one after another because none of them worked, then about 6 months ago my OB gave me Yaz....not as a birth control but for the hormones (my tubes are tied) this worked for awhile, just last month I had a mental breakdown, I was literally sitting in my house wondering if a bullet to my head would hurt or if I wouldnt feel anything, I actually asked my boyfriend......no kidding......I went for 2-3 days crying 1 min and screaming n throwing things the next. By the time I felt normal again it was too late, my boyfriend and love of my life couldnt take it anymore.....reality hit me.......I was about to lose the best thing that has ever happened to me and my children!!! I immediately called my counselor and my OB because I knew something was wrong!! I had become a monster! My Ob and I discussed the pattern of my outrages and she then superscribed me another birth control pill Yazmin......I have just started taking it and it is taken constantly, with no reminder pill, which means no period, which Im hoping means no more monster!!!!! As of right now today I feel great...my boyfriend is thinking things over but is hesitant of staying together because of this monster Ive been in our past....I have yet to be able reassure him that Im trying to tame this evil being inside me.........with no idea how to do so.....

[runner77]

What can I say I thought I had PMS for many many years...Just reading this thread I am crying cos 1 I am due on and 2 I soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo relate to everything that has been said on this thread.. I have been told over the years to pull myself together. I am on the pill and this helps with the bad period pains and blood clotts. But the emotional roller coster is scary. I have lost friends that I have cared about. I have been having suicide thoughts just writing this down makes me feel ashamed. I feel guilty at the moment cos

[jennalyn9009]

I am new to this thread and feel so happy to find people who understand me. I was diagnosed with PMDD a year ago and have been taking Zoloft regularly (I was feeling fully depressed...probably as a result of feeling hopeless about curing my PMDD). It worked fine for awhile and I'm definitely not as out of control as I was, but my emotions are still unnecessarily negative and self destructive! I have a doctor's appointment in a couple weeks and would like to try taking Zoloft for only the two weeks of menstruation (which is recommended). Thoughts?

I am also really suffering in my relationship with my husband. He is a recovered alcoholic and very in control of his life. He can't seem to understand why I can't just "fix it". It is to the point where he wants to leave me if it happens another month. I feel completely hopeless and don't know what to do. Is there anything I can do to help him understand what I am going through...that I don't want to be like this?! He gets frustrated because I tend to "question" his feelings for me during my PMDD. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

[MissK]

I suffer from extreme PMDD. I have tried everything from anti depressants, to holistic approaches. I eat very healthy and exercise six days a week. I have seen every kind of doctor to help me cope with this. I am not able to hold healthy relationships, nor keep up with my responsibilities at work. It completely disables me. I have thoughts of suicide and have gone as far as reaching out for help just to be put in a mental ward. Then I get my period and all is better. It is as if demons are inside of me when I am going through this. It completely disables me.

When I am not PMSing I am a successful, outgoing, driven individual. Everyone loves me. If they only knew the I endure every month.

I take prozac and doctor prescribed neurontin (an anti convulsent) two weeks before my next episode. I want to get my ovaries removed. I am 33 years old. I have had been felling this way every month for 17 years.
Something has to be done. I cannot live with this.

[Dramamama]

there is help!

I'm going to reiterate what everyone says when they find this forum and tell you all that I want to cry that I am not crazy after all! I too am Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I am so unhappy with the way this has taken over my life and ruining my relationship with the man I want to marry. I am 22 and have been diagnosed with bipolar and manic depression since I was 15-16... now I'm wondering if I've been misdiagnosed all these years? I have recently started Wellbutrin- I am on month 3-4 and it helps sometimes but it doesn't quell the monster!! Yesterday, I felt like I had completely lost it. I was down and just couldn't get my head wrapped around life. I couldn't take it anymore. The night before, I had seriously contemplated packing a bag and going to the airport without telling anyone and just getting on a plane somewhere- I had no pre-determined destination- because I felt I couldn't handle it anymore. When I told my bf this the next day when I was in my insane state of mind, trying to get emotional support because I was so upset, he just got upset that I had ruined and interrupted his work day and why was I doing this to him. He told me to move in with my dad (we live together) because he couldn't take care of me. I asked him couldn't or wouldn't?? What makes you think we can have a future if you're not willing to help me? He said he is willing to help me he just can't understand what I have to be so stressed out about that I am acting this way. He says he wants to date a woman and not a child. It got to the point where I broke up with him because I cannot make him happy. He says why would that make me happy? I just feel like a destructive force. I have tried handling this on my own with relaxation techniques for years and it never seemed to do anything. I can't control it on my own. No way. It has been most frustrating. We have a counseling session scheduled for today and hopefully we will be able to work through this. I have given him resources and asked him to research this on his own so he can see what I was trying to explain to him. Will he ever be able to understand?? I have a doc appointment today to talk to her about this, but I don't want to be put on an SSRI- I would much rather have clonopin or xanax or something to control my frenzies. It's soooo hard to get perspective when I'm in that state. I just want and NEEED something to save the most important relationship in my life! Any support would be excellent...

Your story sounds like something that I could have wrote. I have the same experience. I am taking progesterone bio idential creme and it is helping a lot but now enough. I will go to to my doctor to see if he can up the dose. I strongly suggest you try it because it has helped me and so many people. I learned about it once on Oprah and in Suzanne Somer's books. I was a skeptic but I was desperate for an answer to this issue. Bioidentical creams work!! It's a life saver. Just gotta get the dosage right AND you need a good support system! Your boyfriend should read up on it if he cares enough.

[domenicbahr]

Hi, I'm Michelle, I've be suffering with PMDD for two years, or at least that's when I was officially told about it. I had always just assumed everyone had extreme Dr. Jekyl/ Mr. Hyde moments, but I see now that that isn't true. Because I was 16 when I saw my doctor about it he and my mom decided just to try regular diet and exercise and hope that I felt better, but I never really have. I feel like it's been getting worse if anything, and the monthly cycle of turning into someone I can't stand is killing my life. I get suicidal, bitter, resentful, and just down right mean. I cry for no reason, yell at those who love me and really just flip out. It's ruining some of the best relationships I have, and I'm to embarrassed to really tell anyone about it. I'm worried that they'll just laugh it off as "my time of the month".

Usually I am very outgoing, happy, playful, carefree and friendly. I have a wide friend base but it's mostly guys who cant really understand. My mom and I don't really talk, so the only person I' ever able to explain how I'm feeling to is my best friend who happens to be male. While he does his best, I know he doesn't fully understand, and I really can't ever expect him to.

My point is, I need something to help the insanity I deal through every month. I can't keep putting those I love through my PMDD related Dr. Jekyl/ Mr. Hyde madness. I'm not a fan of medication, so I really want to find something else, but if that's the only way to fix this then it's more than worth it. I need to stop.

[Bunny98]

Hi, My name is Melissa, I too have been suffering from extreme PMDD. Mine has been going on pretty much since I got my period when I was 12. All this time my parents had been telling me I needed help that I have anger managment issues and I just needed to learn to control my anger. This PMDD is not normal anger I feel completely lost, depressed, anxious, worthless etc. The anger part of it is completely out of control. I have in these PMDD fits have assaulted the people I love. I used to take it out on my Mom in the past I have hit her kicked her, yell at her etc. Now that i am older and are in a relationship with the person I want to be with for the rest of my life I take it out on him. I have hit him etc. It is a complete out of body experience for me I see what is going on but can not stop it. Also having a lot of other things going on that trigger this depression do not help! A lot of my friends say I do the things I do for attention and that all I am is a drama queen and they have pretty much stopped talking to me which has made my feelings of worthlessness worse. I at times feel like i have no one to turn to, and at the end of every PMDD fit i have contemplated suicide. In the past year and a half pretty much every 3rd month my PMDD is total insanity and these are the times when I have assaulted my boyfriend and threatend suicide. I have even gone as far as cutting myself and the last time i tied a cord around my neck. I do not believe I would actually go through with it bc I feel I don't have the guts to go through with it. If I do not get control of this I will lose the person that cares about me the most my boyfriend. I personally can't believe he has stayed with me after all I have done to him in fits of PMDD rage. When I am not in this monster that takes me over I am one of the sweetest people you will ever meet. I care more about others than I do myself most of the time. I also am not a fan of medications bc I have in the past tried prozak and did not like how it made me feel. I will at this point do anything and everything I can to make this madness stop or I will lose everything.

[jessicadanielle]

im so glad im not alone. im only 16 and when my PMDD week comes it gets really bad... i sit in a daze and i want to die. i thought at first it was normal but none of my friends have this problem. when it comes i am so depressed that all i can do is sit in bed and stare at the corners of my room. i get self harm and suicidal thoughts too. how can i control this???

[KarenAnn101]

I am 18, until now i have always thought that i was just EXTRA sensitive on my period but after reading pmdd symptoms and all your post I'm rethinking that,i have always had the most terrible mood swings every month, I'll go from crying to yelling and i always felt bad for the people who had to be around me for it,i have severe pain and cramps with it, i have never tried for any kind of treatment and honestly I'm scared to. My appetite every month is sporadic, I'll have terrible cravings or just can't eat at all, I've suffered from depression, High anxiety, thinking i was just bonkers for alot of my life, I'm not sure what to do, can anyone help?