I'm sorry that this is going to so long but here it goes:
I'm 17 and my mom is the conservative type. She's never talked to me about sex, sexual health, or lady anatomy. Because of this, I get very anxious talking about it too. Well here's the problem- for the last two years I've been experiencing the sharp pains deep in my vagina and I've tried to ignore them. They only last a second and are completely random. Recently I've come to terms that I need to see a doctor about it. There are two issues with that:
1) my anxiety. When I even think about going for an appointment, I start sweating, my heart rate skyrockets, I get nauseous, I get dizzy, I start shaking and trembling, I start to hyperventilate to where it feels like I'm being suffocated, and then I break down sobbing for a good ten minutes. The idea if being exposed in front if a stranger makes my body and mind feel threatened, despite the fact that I know they are professionals. I can't control these feelings no matter how many breathing exercises or calming tricks I try.
2) having my mother involved is not an option. My mother doesn't listen to me and tries to figure out everything herself. I just want to confide in a physician and I want that to be my personal information, and if she knew she would not allow it. I'm trying to find a good place to go that's cheap. I already called my planned parenthood here and they have me an attitude which worsened my anxiety so I refuse to go there.
I just feel like I'm stuck because I have to either choose to ignore it for ten more months until I'm 18 or have my mother pay but then she'll make my anxiety worse and then ill still end up not going.
Please help with whatever words of wisdom you can offer
I'm 17 and my mom is the conservative type. She's never talked to me about sex, sexual health, or lady anatomy. Because of this, I get very anxious talking about it too. Well here's the problem- for the last two years I've been experiencing the sharp pains deep in my vagina and I've tried to ignore them. They only last a second and are completely random. Recently I've come to terms that I need to see a doctor about it. There are two issues with that:
1) my anxiety. When I even think about going for an appointment, I start sweating, my heart rate skyrockets, I get nauseous, I get dizzy, I start shaking and trembling, I start to hyperventilate to where it feels like I'm being suffocated, and then I break down sobbing for a good ten minutes. The idea if being exposed in front if a stranger makes my body and mind feel threatened, despite the fact that I know they are professionals. I can't control these feelings no matter how many breathing exercises or calming tricks I try.
2) having my mother involved is not an option. My mother doesn't listen to me and tries to figure out everything herself. I just want to confide in a physician and I want that to be my personal information, and if she knew she would not allow it. I'm trying to find a good place to go that's cheap. I already called my planned parenthood here and they have me an attitude which worsened my anxiety so I refuse to go there.
I just feel like I'm stuck because I have to either choose to ignore it for ten more months until I'm 18 or have my mother pay but then she'll make my anxiety worse and then ill still end up not going.
Please help with whatever words of wisdom you can offer
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