[philla]

No, I haven't experienced sexual touching with a woman. I have only seen them in porn, I have looked at a pretty good amount of porn no I've seen many different types of vaginas, I've seen some where you really can't see any of the womans vagina, the more visible more pronounced ones are what really turn me off, I don't know it's hard to describe them lol.

[philla]

I guess I will have to do some safe exploring with women and transsexuals. I don't think I could ever, ever, ever bring myself to have sex with a man. I don't know where I could find a transsexual anywhere tho, especially a decent looking one.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

IDK... I've opened a can of worms, turned the thread a little you watch

See - Porn...They are actresses, not at all worried about showing their bodies, in full...For money... Not that I am putting them down because everyone has a right to follow what ever course of directions they desire, with work...

But, you know? If I was a male, a virgin and I watched porn only, never knew real intimacy and how that all worked, coupled with feelings, emotions and lust, I would see all the expectations from you and all the I want from them and put that together and go, I hate vaginas

You know that when you meet a "young lady" she isn't going to be into all of that right off, and maybe never, some women are very conservative

I gain the impression it's more the thought of how it all works, verses that 's Porn...

Coupled with a fetish.

CW

[philla]

IDK... I've opened a can of worms, turned the thread a little you watch

See - Porn...They are actresses, not at all worried about showing their bodies, in full...For money... Not that I am putting them down because everyone has a right to follow what ever course of directions they desire, with work...

But, you know? If I was a male, a virgin and I watched porn only, never knew real intimacy and how that all worked, coupled with feelings, emotions and lust, I would see all the expectations from you and all the I want from them and put that together and go, I hate vaginas

You know that when you meet a "young lady" she isn't going to be into all of that right off, and maybe never, some women are very conservative

I gain the impression it's more the thought of how it all works, verses that 's Porn...

Coupled with a fetish.

CW

Yea I know, I don't expect any girl to be into all that stuff. I'm just worried that watching porn you probably see the "best" looking vaginas, and I'm still not interested.

[WildChild]

I'm just worried that watching porn you probably see the "best" looking vaginas,

I doubt it very much. Have you seen some better looking women in life, than in porn? Porn is about what gets men off. Period. It is not about what arouses a woman at all. Being with someone who is attracted to you, who cares about you, who wants you, is a whole different thing.

[Rediscovered]

Philla, I know of young men who have fallen into the trap of watching a *lot* of porn~~and what happens is, over time, your brain needs more and more dopamine to feel good and that can only come from increasing the novelty (and sometimes the brutality) of the porn. Otherwise, watching regular sex just doesn't "do it" for you anymore.

I'm a member of a forum where there are straight men who have had this happen to them--they become afraid they are gay because their brains need more and more of a "rush" to be able to masturbate and ejaculate. These men have found that once they abstain from the porn, their brain chemicals fall back into balance and they find they are no longer attracted to men/transsexuals, etc.

But it is very hard to do and takes a lot of willpower. I'm not sure how much porn you've been using over time, but if you are interested in getting help, there is a wonderful website about how to get off porn and get your brain back in balance. You can send me an IM if you are interested~~if this is indeed what is happening to you, please know it has nothing to do with your love of God, nor your sexuality, etc.~~it only has to do with what has happened to your brain chemicals over time. Take care!

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Pictures are okay, however, that lead to a website...

You know, I've seen petite long haired 20 year olds with socks and knickers and a top on that look just like that....

I wonder if you would have picked her if you were able to see a large buldge down there?

In any event, your 17 according to your post, so is this something you really want to do now, this early in your life? What if when 26 you regret it?

Just have a think..

[philla]

Actually I would have perferred a large bulge, I think that is really sexy, I do have pics confirming her equipment. I will continue to think about it and make sure it is something I want to do, It's just I'm driving myself crazy wondering.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

No, I haven't experienced sexual touching with a woman.

I'm only saying, because of the above statement coupled with your age, what if say 4 years down the track, you fall for someone "emotionally" and she's a woman and you fall hard... You decide to be honest and tell her and she walks.

Or what if, as a result of falling hard for a woman, you realise this was all fantasy made from watching so much porn, and you feel sick for doing it, later in life and it eats at you forever.

Sometimes fantasies are best left at that until such time as you know for sure, it can be acted out and not affect the rest of your life..

CW

[CHANDLERS WISH]

chelsy...

Read the first 5 pages of the OP's Thread....

It's okay to find yourself in life, and to be attracted to alternatives, the OP does not believe he is gay, he does not like the look of a female's parts, and he believes he has a Penis fetish......

My concern is that it's the Porn he's been viewing that has created this fantasy...If the fantasy remains years to come and consumes him without watching porn, that's his preference, but if it is as a result of watching porn, and is merely a fantasy and he acts on it, only to establish he really likes girls and falls in love one day and feels horrid for acting on it, it will eat at him for life....

I think as I stated above at 17...you need to be very careful at the choices you make that you can never take back.

CW