[jns]

I guess it just puts some pressure on me. He acts like I'm so wonderful. All he knows of me is my looks. Once you meet me, after the date, then will he still be so enthusiastic. If he is, then so be it. I know that is part of dating, some dates go well, others don't. I'm just not that use to someone this excited!! And after those comments, it just makes me feel like the looks is what is exciting him.

If he was really smart, he would know a little more about you from your posts here. But I don't think he has been lurking, from his comments.

As far as being wonderful, we all know you are wonderful, also. I hope that is OK. Good luck!

[Amber]

JNS, I pray to god that he doesn't know this website exist!!!!

As for the good luck, thanks!

[Amber]

No, this guy had better not know about this place.

My ex-boyfriend knows this site exist. It was something like January that I told him about the site because I wanted him to know exactly what I was going through. I figured if he read this thread, he would be able to understand what I was going through better. And he knows that sometimes I say what is on my mind at the moment, not caring that ten minutes later it can't be erased. How frequently he goes here, I have no idea. My guess is not often at all but I could be wrong.

[Texinator]

What if he did know about this place? If he read everything you wrote and didn't like it... you'd save yourself a lot of time and energy. But if he read everything and liked it... wouldn't that be great.

[jns]

Amber, I've seen nothing in your posts to worry about. Your a complex woman, but that is OK.

[Amber]

I really wouldn't want him to see it, not if I can help it. The stuff in this thread is something that should be shared to him over time at a casual pace. Not before a first date, all at once. And some of the stuff that concerned my ex and I is not really any of his business, at least not at this point. It is in a public place but it is not like something I will tell him about.

With my ex, I had emailed him because his pet passed away. And he asked me how I was doing. At that time I wasn't doing well at all. I needed some kind of closure that I hadn't gotten yet. So I wanted him to know exactly what I was feeling, so I showed him all of this. And also, I wanted him to read some of the advise everyone else posted here. It was an attempted for him to understand that chemistry was not all cut and dry. That if your mind is not in on the act and you are nervous, it could complicate matters. Him reading this did help him open his eyes on what I was going through. No, he still wouldn't really believe that my mind was playing a part of it all. Well at least a big enough part that I wouldn't feel his kiss.

It pretty much was a lost causes and eventually I gave in. But I think it was a short time after reading this, we started to discuss some issues about how matters ended with us by email. And it got so heated that I called him up on a Saturday once and we talked it all out. Ok, I cried for three hours in his ear, while he talking it all out. I had words in there, here and there but he explained what I needed to know. It was a big part of my closure with him. Something I was missing and really needed. I emailed him a few hours after that call, thanking him for that call.

But there is too much in this place, that a guy I don't know but would like to get to know, shouldn't really find. That is like throwing a steel ton on the guy. Or whatever that saying is.

[Amber]

I just thought of something that I need an answer to ASAP because I'm seeing the guy in a few hours. He has a new sports car. Personally, I don't really care about sports cars but this is besides the point, But I have a feeling he is going to suggest for me to take a ride in his car to show it off to me. If I get into that car, what message am I sending to him? Are we just checking out his car or am I sort of giving him permission to make a move on me?

If it is saying try to make a move on me, what excuse could I give him for not going for a ride with him?

[Guest]

Hemroids ??

Sorry that just popped in my head, pay no attention to me..

[Amber]

Wireless is cool. I'm typing from my bed. Today I came even farther. But I'm not there yet.

Once again the sweating and I became wet a few times tonight. But the big difference is my legs and arms start to tighten up and I started to shake more and more, and tighten up more and more. But it wouldn't go farther than that. It was like some explosion is to come but it won't come. Does that sound like the stage right before an orgasm or am I not near that point yet?

Once again the Titanic and my ex was responsible for it all. I wish that clip was longer!!!!!!!!!!!

[jns]

It will come and you will cum. It's just a matter of time. I think you are still tying to control the situation too much. Let yourself go more. Let your mind wander away after getting in the mood and getting excited.