[Amber]

I feel like I just lost fifty pounds off of my shoulders this morning.

For the last six months or so, I thought I was living in denial. About six months or so ago, the mention of testosterone was brought up on my thread. A certain someone was so sure that was my problem. And it got me to think that maybe that was my problem. But I was scared. I didn't want something like drugs to be my only way of getting my sex life in order.

So instead of going out of my way to make an appointment for that blood work to be done, I decided to wait for my one year gynacologist appointment. And in that six months, I continued to try to masturbate, all but convincing myself that I must have low testosterone. But from what I have written here in the past month or two, you know that some progress had been made in my trying to orgasm. But still in the back of my mind, the testosterone was nagging at me.

About a week or so ago, I had my one year appointment and as much as I was scared, I asked for that test. I just got the results for them this morning. She said my testosterone is normal. I asked her, you mean it is not low. She said no. It is normal.

While this doesn't cure my problems with trying to orgasm, at least now I know it has to do something more mental. Something I will find a way to overcome and drugs will not be the answer to it all. You don't know how relieved I am to hear that!

[WildChild]

Good. It's always a good thing to have correct information and know what you are working with.

[ItsASecret]

And that is why if you are in doubt you should get a test done. It is either going to say yes or no, either way it puts one's mind at ease.

[Amber]

And that is why if you are in doubt you should get a test done. It is either going to say yes or no, either way it puts one's mind at ease.

ItsASecret, I agree with you. It is just that I so afraid that it was true and I didn't want it to be so. The last thing I want is to have to take drugs for whatever reason why I can't orgasm. It was stupid to wait but that's me, I guess.

[Amber]

A date with a new guy this Saturday. We meet at a singles event that was a discussion on relationships and sex. We didn't really talk a one on one with each other while there. He emailed me afterwards.

I think he might have liked my answer to a certain question. LOL There wasn't too many sex questions, more relationship questions. Everyone would put a question on a piece of paper and fold it up, not knowing who wrote what question. Then a person would pick a question out of a bowl, answer the question out loud, and then everyone had to answer the same question, going around the circle. The one question that I think he liked my answer to was How would someone try to spice up their sex lives? People answered stuff like, learn what your partner likes, stuff like that. When it came to me I said, Why have it only in a bed. Find other places to have it, like on the guy's desk. Or who knows where else. The guys got a kick out of that answers and I have a feeling he was one of those who liked it. Hey, that is what happens after spending a year at this chatroom, I come up with answers like that. LOL Well, having it on the desk was one of my ex-boyfriend's fantasies. LOL Having it everywhere else was from here. I remembered that thread that asked where was the best place that you did it.

So, the date is Saturday. But I can't help but wonder what this guy is thinking. Did he really ask me out because of that question or just because he likes me. Because I'm not looking for a friends with benefit deal here. I just hope it is more me and not the challenge to see how many places we can have sex. I guess we will soon see.

A part of me what to try sex again. But then a part of myself is scared to death. Last time I had it was with my ex boyfriend, before I told him I couldn't relax. I have never done it since. So I have never had a wonderful experience before. I want the next guy to be someone who I feel comfortable with and that is not someone I have dated two or three times. So if we get past the first few dates and he wants it then, he has another thing coming. I won't give myself to just anyone. I can't do it like that.

[Texinator]

When it came to me I said, Why have it only in a bed. Find other places to have it, like on the guy's desk.

That's my girl!!

[Amber]

That's my girl!!

Yep, you taught me a lot Tex!

But your praise won't help me get through Saturday's date. I really hope this guy is not just out for sex. Because he won't be getting it any time soon if he is. I'll try to relax and enjoy myself, see where the night leads me. It won't end on a desk, that is all know.

[jns]

A date with a new guy this Saturday. We meet at a singles event that was a discussion on relationships and sex. We didn't really talk a one on one with each other while there. He emailed me afterwards.

I think he might have liked my answer to a certain question. LOL There wasn't too many sex questions, more relationship questions. Everyone would put a question on a piece of paper and fold it up, not knowing who wrote what question. Then a person would pick a question out of a bowl, answer the question out loud, and then everyone had to answer the same question, going around the circle. The one question that I think he liked my answer to was How would someone try to spice up their sex lives? People answered stuff like, learn what your partner likes, stuff like that. When it came to me I said, Why have it only in a bed. Find other places to have it, like on the guy's desk. Or who knows where else. The guys got a kick out of that answers and I have a feeling he was one of those who liked it. Hey, that is what happens after spending a year at this chatroom, I come up with answers like that. LOL Well, having it on the desk was one of my ex-boyfriend's fantasies. LOL Having it everywhere else was from here. I remembered that thread that asked where was the best place that you did it.

So, the date is Saturday. But I can't help but wonder what this guy is thinking. Did he really ask me out because of that question or just because he likes me. Because I'm not looking for a friends with benefit deal here. I just hope it is more me and not the challenge to see how many places we can have sex. I guess we will soon see.

A part of me what to try sex again. But then a part of myself is scared to death. Last time I had it was with my ex boyfriend, before I told him I couldn't relax. I have never done it since. So I have never had a wonderful experience before. I want the next guy to be someone who I feel comfortable with and that is not someone I have dated two or three times. So if we get past the first few dates and he wants it then, he has another thing coming. I won't give myself to just anyone. I can't do it like that.

Amber, good luck on your date. Take things slow and see where they lead.

[Amber]

Thanks jns! Yep, slow is the key word here!

[Amber]

I guess the new style in clothing this season is tight stretch pants with tops that fit close to your body and goes down to almost your knees. I'm going to wear an outfit like that on the date. I like it because it is stylish. I have only that outfit until I get the rest for Christmas. But it just so happens that the top goes up to my neck and has those type of collars that fold over. No chance at all of any cleavage. Didn't pick that outfit because of that but after thinking about it, decided that it is better not to. But then the close fitting outfit with no access to cleavage may drive him crazy. The top isn't tight but it is sort of fitting and shows my shape. I like the way I look in it. And it is not coming off!! Not that I think he would stoop that low but then I don't know this guy really. But I will be staying to public places. I'm not stupid. And a co-worker/friend knows where I will be and I have her cell phone number. I have my bases covered.