[mdraven380]

I am sorry to hear of your loss. I know that it can be really hard loosing your family, I lost my mom whe I was 14, and I just began to take back my life last year and I am now 29. The pain that you feel will never go away, but it's up to you to let this experience make you or break you. I don't really want to get into detail about my experiences,after all this is about you, but I can tell you first hand that if you allow youself to become weak and dependant, you will destroy yourself. I was depressed for 13 years, no medicine, no therepy, no man could cure my depression. As far as your situation goes with your bf and his ex, pray, girlfriend, pray. First of all, you have to realize that the Devil is busy in your life right now because of the losses that you have suffered. Emotionally and mentally you are under attack and he will use it against you, he will make you feel like you're all alone and no one cares about you or what you're going through, espcially your bf, because he's the closest person to you. You have to realize that he may feel badly for you but he dosen't understand how you feel or what you're going through. Men tend to grieve differently than women and they don't always understand why we make ourselves suffer like we do especially when you portray yourself to be a strong person. The ex won't leave him alone because she can't deal with seeing him happy with someone else. She's probably even surprised that he is over her and not interested in leaving you for the hope of her love. Truth be told, if he did leave you for her, he would regret it because she'll never leave her husband for she just wants to string him along and you for that matter. As long as you feed into her bs shes going to continue to taunt you. She knows what has happened to you and quite frankly, she dosen't care, she wants you all to be miserable so that she can be happy. My bf has never been married but he has two kids with his ex gf, she hates the fact that we are together because I make him happy. She thought that he wouldn't get over her soggy but when he did and we moved in together she didn't know what hit her. We've been together for five years and she still hates me. I used to think that he would leave me to go back to her it used to make me sick to just think about it so I started doing anything I could think of to show him that I was the one that he needed to be with, I cant believe Im writing this I feel so stupid now, because everything I did was a waist of time and energy but when I stared praying and reading the Bible, I rebuilt my faith and things started to turn around. Prya her out of your lives every time you tink about it just ask God to remove her from your life. When she put something else on myspace for you, you send her a picture of your booty and tell her to just kiss your bumper, then you tell her your bf dosent mind. No Im joking just ignore her, she wants to cause havoc in your life because you did something that she thought couldnt be done and claimed his heart. Thrive off of what people hate about you the most, because most of the time thats what makes you the best. I hope that you can find the strength to deal with your loss I feel so sad for you. I will keep you in my prayers.

Hi Sunshine,
Thank you so much for your imput.
I do pray everyday and I have deleted my Boyfriends ex so that I won't be tempted ever again to see what evil things she has written about me.
I guess if he wanted her he would have left when he had the chance. 3 months later he is still here with me.
This month on the 30th it will be 6 years since my mom died and in the passed 10 month I have lost 3 close family members.
The devil really is trying to break me but I'm still standing

It is really difficult but somhow I mange. I just cry then move on and carry on with my routine.
I'd really like to get back in shape again but just don't have the motivation yet.

Thanks again