[LanaBear]

You know philla... I've often wondered the same thing. I have a friend who was married for many many years and had kids. He later got divorced and has been in a long term relationship with, technically, a man. However, this man, is very very feminine and is in a sense transsexual. I've had girl conversations with him/she and he takes hormones to grow breasts and is basically a woman. So, it is very very hard for me to see my friend as being gay, as he is in a sense having a relationship with someone they both consider to be female.

It's a good question. I think you do have some confusion and it may just take some time to figure out and things may eventually change for you. I don't think you are gay, I think you will do some experimenting though.

[philla]

I dont know just the general look of it, It's not really my thing. One more thing I forgot to add when I masterbate all I look at is transsexuals and its all about her penis, then after I cum i feel gross and im not attracted to transsexuals anymore. I wondered if maybe when im horny my true sexuality comes out then when im not horny i bury it deep down or something? ...I dont know

[kristalyn_04]

I dont know just the general look of it, It's not really my thing. One more thing I forgot to add when I masterbate all I look at is transsexuals and its all about her penis, then after I cum i feel gross and im not attracted to transsexuals anymore. I wondered if maybe when im horny my true sexuality comes out then when im not horny i bury it deep down or something? ...I dont know

You probably have some shame attached to your attraction. Let me just say that there is nothing wrong with this, you are allowed to be attracted to whatever you want, as long as it's not illegal. Is there something about this that makes you think it is wrong?

[LanaBear]

I dont know just the general look of it, It's not really my thing. One more thing I forgot to add when I masterbate all I look at is transsexuals and its all about her penis, then after I cum i feel gross and im not attracted to transsexuals anymore. I wondered if maybe when im horny my true sexuality comes out then when im not horny i bury it deep down or something? ...I dont know

Is it guilt? Do you feel that it is wrong to look at them while masturbating? We've all got our fetishes. There is no reason to feel gross because of it. You're young and will learn a lot in time.

[philla]

I don't know, I don't really think of it as being "wrong" I myself just don't really want to be gay, and I guess I kinda after i masterbate feel like well I want to give that girl oral sex and she has a penis so I must like men, but I don't and I kinda freak out...I don't know if what I said made any sense but I guess that's how i feel sorta

[LanaBear]

You don't need to freak out about this. I my opinion, like I said about my friend above, I don't see it as being gay really. You being young, you may be more confused about your feelings than anything. You may do it eventually and find it wasn't for you and you don't see what you ever saw in it or you may not. You may have sex with a girl someday and wonder what exactly you found gross about a vagina or you may not.

I think it would be very easy to be confused about this, wondering exactly what you are feeling. I think in time you will find it.

There is nothing wrong with being gay, bisexual, attracted to transsexuals or being straight.

[philla]

Thanks LanaBear. Yea, at this point when I say I find a vagina gross, It is totally based on the look of it not sex with one, I just don't know why EVERYTHING I want to do involves her penis I'm attracted to them partly because they are so feminine and pretty but It's not like I want to give her anal or anything, It's all about her penis

[LanaBear]

A part of me also things that maybe it is comforting/attractive for you because it is familiar... You have a penis, you know what you like and how to do things to please you. The penis is something you know. The vagina, not so much. When you are young, the intimate areas of the opposite sex can be frightening, unattractive, unfamiliar, daunting, etc. Heck, at 16, 17, I thought the penis was the ugliest thing I had ever every seen. Now, not even close, I find the male form and everything about it breathtaking. You are attracted physically to the female form, intimately you are attracted to what you know.

I don't know, just a thought. May not even make sense.

[hppacific]

well all in all i dont think that you have anything to be ashamed of. i think its perfectly natural to be attracted to your own "equipment". i like to watch when i get oral because i think the visual of it is amazing. and i almost don't blame you for watching tranny porn, women are beautiful and no offense to male porn stars but generally they are pretty nasty, and i dont think that if i were a guy staring at some ugly guy get oral that it would turn me on. so i dont think that its all that weird that you would get turned on by a transexual getting oral, more like killing two birds with one stone. like oooow hot chick gets her **** sucked. doesnt seem all the weird to me. and i actually know of 100% strait men who don't find vagina sexy but they still love women, either cuz they had a bad experience, or they dont really know whats all going on down there and are just kind of intimidated by it. its not really a big thing if you think about it. you're young and haven't explored the sexual playing field. and not to mention you act on this while you watch porn right?? porn is all about fantasy. there is not a guy on this earth thats going to walk into a coffee shop n get nailed by three supermodel looking girls with fake boobs. it just doesnt happen, so don't get all bent out of shape because you fantasize in the porn region. so no i honestly dont think you are gay you could be confused, but all in all i would say you're strait unless you're checking out guys when you go to the mall and want to do things with legitimate men i dont think you honestly have anything to worry about if you're worried about being gay. either way you are who you are and don't be ashamed by it gay, strait, bi, who cares just be comfortable in your own skin.

[philla]

Thank you girls, I thought about the i'm familliar with a penis argument and I must admit I hope it's true