[Bladyn'smommy16]

I just packed up all my stuff my mom will be here after work
I hope I stay strong

[Euphoric]

You have acknowledged and admitted the situation to yourself.

After 300+ postings, you have finally came out of your shell and poured your heart and soul into a posting that acknowledges your situation to your support team on WH.

You have packed your bags.

You need to stay focused on why you are doing this. You want a better life. Although you have love for your SO, you are not in love.
You are taking baby steps to improve yourself and discover your self-worth. You are opening up the opportunity to a better life, one where perhaps you'll find a partner who loves you and both tells and shows you. You are removing yourself from a destructive environment where the person you care about constantly reminds you that you are replaceable. Baby steps, FORWARD.

You already know his tactics and the ending result. You are looking for a new future, a healthy, happy future. Maybe you should write down the reasons you are leaving and how you feel right now. When you feel like you may fall prey to his tactics, take that paper out and remind yourself of the reasons you left a volitile situation.

Look into some online classes, ones that will advance your goals. Seek out activities that you enjoy and incorportate them into your daily life. Enjoy quality time with your mother and child. Stand strong and don't allow cheap words to draw you backward.

You have an ultimate support team at WH

Euphoric

[Bladyn'smommy16]

Thanks for your support everyone who has helped me and gave me advice..
I'm going to be leaving for the millionth time but I will do my best to not keep that pattern going
I guess I should write a list because every time he talks me into coming back I don't remember why I left in the first place. Which isn't good
I wanted to always help him and be there for him because I know he has some mental problems but I can't help anyone when I'm so depressed that can't even get up in the morning..
I've lost all my friends because he gets soo jealous..
I've always been very shy but I think it's time to suck it up and join a gym or get a job.( despite what said about daycare) ill probably just join a gym.. Because my fears about my child being molested is something I can't take.. I know he'll be messed up for life.. But I'm rambling now

[Bladyn'smommy16]

I haven't been able to leave yet because my mother is at work but just a few minutes ago he accused me of stealing something because I m packing I was very appalled and it hurt my feelings for him to say that to me..

[CHANDLERS WISH]

I've been asleep and now awake again

Good morning mam.......

Here is one word I wish for you to forget it exists.

Ready?

HOPE

...................No, you KNOW you will make it this time..... for you, for your son....

[Bladyn'smommy16]

I wrote him a note to tell him how I feel and I'm going to put it out for him before I leave
3 more hours till I can leave :/
Ill will make it because like everyone of my friends have told me in the past I am strong

[Rhonda14]

Good luck and stay strong. Don't let him sweet talk you because from what you have posted it is all just that talk. If he truly wants you back he will prove it to you and show you with his actions. Personally if you were my daughter I would tell you to leave and not look back he isn't worthy of you. Sending hugs your way and will keep you in my prayers.

[Bladyn'smommy16]

Thank you rhonda14..
And it is just talk it changes for a while but then it just goes back to the same.
My mother has told me the same before but she was actually liking him now because we haven't fought for a while but he doesn't seem like he can change for very long..

Perhaps, I should get some kind of therapy to help me? Because I always seem to get pulled back in

[Rhonda14]

Therapy is a good thing and can help you tremendously.

[Bladyn'smommy16]

I've been thinking about it..
Just not sure what they can do