[CHANDLERS WISH]

I note you actually clicked "like" on Starina's post so that suggests that you read it. Also, I know some people, do read, think, try to take it in, but continue on their own path until "after the fact" at which time, hopefull something, someone said gets stuck in that thought pattern for future.

We do not "erase" threads on this Forum.

You, in my opinion, are doing this for love. You crave it, need it, are not given it, you are stuck in your bedroom most of the time at 40ish, whilst others live their lives around you.. So you have a "care" factor where married men are concerned and a "care" factor as far as you are concerned.

You have taken (1) step to be happy... The wrong one in my opinion but never the less a step.

I personally would like you to re-read and re-read your responses.. At 44 I changed my whole being, world and I'm loving it. Your turn.

[Guest]

I am going to go meet him late at night. He is going to tell his wife he is getting gas for the car. I am going to dress like a ***** and love it! I hope he grabs me in the parking lot and puts his hands all over me. Maybe I will get him off in my car....

[Claret]

Why do you want to treat yourself as a hooker? If that is all the comittment and feeling you want out of this encounter, why not ask him if he's willing to pay for it? I don't mean to sound harsh but that is what you are doing to yourself. Are you not worth more? Come on, think about this for a while - please.

[Ashlee T.]

Do what you want dear...... it seems you're not willing to give the consequences any thought. Just remember, if you play you pay, so when this all crashes and burns around you and you find your self esteem hitting it's rock bottom............. no complaining.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

I'm thinking you are angry over "life" and this is rebelion.

You don't know this guy. A parking lot are you serious? Dark, dangerous, no one around with someone you have NEVER met..

And, you are over 40, not a child. What if he is not all that he seems? Seriously....

[Guest]

I am rebelling. I have never been a risk taker- won't even go on a rollercoaster, can't even talk to people, I avoid them but when It comes to sex I am risky. I feel like I am in a prison and can't get out, so when I do get out I need to live, to feel exhilarated because my whole life I never have. I have no one to count on, no relatives, just kids.

I was taught that everything in life is bad, that I can't do anything, and everything will hurt you. I had to be home at 10pm when I was 18. and look at me now. I am yelled at , belittled, told to go to my room at my age because I am looked upon as having somehting wrong with me. well I do have somehting wrong with me. Doing this empowers me.

I am 42 and have lived yet

[Little]

I don't see this going anywhere good. We don't need another attention-sucking vampiric troll on this website.