[Patti-here]

Is there anything sexually that you've ever done that you were ashamed of yourself for doing ?

[chaya]

I recently had sex with my lesbian house guest. The worst part is that it was so good I can't wait to do it again.

I feel so guilty it's hard to look my husband in the eye, if he found out he would be devastated.

[atskitty2]

I think we saw that one coming chaya.

[CHANDLERS WISH]

Chaya, you can't wait to do it again? Oh, oh

[chaya]

I had not had an O in over a year. With Kiyomi I had 2 in one hour. That's why I can't wait to do it again.

[jns]

chaya, its unfortunate that your husband has shown no aptitude at finding out what makes you tick sexually. At least you know now that it's not some sort of mental block, just bad technique and no technique. I would suppose Kiyomi took her time and learned what gets you going. Further, I would expect she did things your husband has refused to do, such as oral. The question is, where do you go from here?

[Euphoric]

Chaya,

You have shared quite a few posts that describe your husband as a man who doesn't necessarily show you the respect that you deserve. He has taken his friends side of arguments and belittled your feelings. You have "serviced" his needs because you feel it is your wifely duty. When sex becomes an obligation, the fun, excitement, and emotional connection are lost.

With Kiyomi, there was a magnetic attraction that took you by surprise, however, your curiosity was piqued. There was no pressure and obviously a lot of pleasure. Your pleasure. You felt attractive, cared for, special. Pleasurable emotions that were buried in the dark recesses of your mind resurfaced, hence, the big O's.

For a long time you have felt there was something wrong with you and even resorted to trying devices to 'fix' yourself. This experience proves there was never anything wrong with you, but an issue with your partner (husband) and the emotional connection. Although you are having a hard time looking him in the eye, you are learning more about yourself.

[Patti-here]

I recently had sex with my lesbian house guest. The worst part is that it was so good I can't wait to do it again.

I feel so guilty it's hard to look my husband in the eye, if he found out he would be devastated.

Oh Hun,, that's noting to ever be ashamed of,, I think you mean the 'best' part is that it was so good you can't wait to do it again.

[chaya]

that's noting to ever be ashamed of,

Don't you consider that cheating? Everyone else does and I think my husband would.

[Patti-here]

Don't you consider that cheating? Everyone else does and I think my husband would.

Yes, I would imagine that it would be considered as cheating, which I by the way don't condone, but when you have to look outside your marriage for sexual gratification and fulfillment,, it might be time to stop blaming yourself, and live life to it's fullest.