[Amber]

If someone told me last year what this year would be like, I never would have believed half of it. I had experienced a lot of first times this past year. Some good and some bad. Some bigger than others but they all effected me personally. There are some that are smaller than these but I would be here forever if I mentioned all of those.

My firsts in 2009

got drunk for the first time and slept on the floor for a few hours.

got stuck in a city overnight by myself because my plane misconnected (what a pain in the butt that was!!)

first time I was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance (not fun) and then I had to spend overnight there. (strangely enough that evening, once I was finally settled in the hospital room and all the drama was over, had turned into one of the best times of my life. I can thank that to my ex, who made it quite special.)

First time I had a mamogram

First time I had a breast biopsy and spent a week with the misery of wondering if I may have breast cancer or not. (my ex was wonderful through that also. Thankfully the tests came back as being normal.)

Went to a man's home, just the two of us.

Had sex

Had a serious boyfriend and the time I spent with him was the best times of my life so far. I will not lie and say otherwise.

Cuddled in a man's arms

lay in a man's bed

stayed overnight at a man's house

slept overnight in the arms of a man

Had a man touch me intimately other than a hug or a kiss on the lips (it felt wonderful)

went to the sex section in a book store (never knew there was such a section before this year. lol)

bought a book about sex

bought a vibrator

used a vibrator and tried to masturbate

bought lingerie from Victoria Secrets and wore it for a man

bought and wore sexy bra and g-strings for a man

I told a man that I loved him.

my heart was broken and dealing with that pain.

bought and watched porn

first time I saw a sex therapist

First time I posted on a sex chatroom.

first time I watch a movie in the theater from the front row.

Saw my first IMax movie.

Saw my first 3D movie in the theater.

There is probably a few more big times but I can't think of them right now.

[Texinator]

First time having your own Orgasm Cheerleaders!

[Amber]

First time having your own Orgasm Cheerleaders!

Can't forget that. Did you wear a skirt also?

[Texinator]

It's a kilt!

[Amber]

It's a kilt!

LOL

A Scottish man. Sorry!

[Texinator]

Tex McGurk!

[Amber]

I'm thinking of trying out my keigelmaster tonight. I'm a little nervous about using this thing because I know I'm still pretty tight up there. But I'm obviously not going to force it in.

I also figure it is better to try this out now in case I some how impossibly screw up somehow. If I do some damage, they will hopefully see it on the ultrasound I have to have of my uterus on Tuesday. There was a small cist on it when they did the ultrasound back in October. They are checking to see if it has grown. I'm hoping it hasn't. I'm actually hoping it has broken up by now if I'm lucky.

[Goodgirl93]

Oh hunny. I hope you get better. I know all about cysts. I've had surgery to get one removed from my overy.Never fun.Mine only got bigger because I had crappy doctors who didn't feel like taking the time to actually see what was wrong with me.Most likely yours has gotten smaller though.I'm thinking positive for you!

And good luck with that kegalmaster.

XXX

[Amber]

Thanks Gigi. Hopefully your doctor has the sense to keep checking you every so often. Some doctors can be such morons.

It runs in my family, the small cyst. But no one has had any that grew big. Hopefully that doesn't happen here.

I tried the keiglemaster. There was one point that I thought I was going to die when going in. It burned, so I relaxed for a moment, and then slowly continued to go in. Right after I got over the hard point, it went in quite easily the last short way. I know it is because I'm not use to having something up there and I know I'm still sort of tight up there. Well, hopefully using this thing will help loosen me up in there.

[Goodgirl93]

Your welcome.And thank you sweetie. My doctor put me on birth control.it prevents cysts from growing.maybe talk to your doctor about that?

I seriously doubt it has gotten bigger.You should be just fine madam.

Hey before long,the kegal master will be your new best friend.haha nah,I think the vibrator has already taken that spot. Oh reminds me,any new sensations or luck with your exploration?