[sallyskellington]

Mes:
I don't get out much anymore b/c I'm on workers comp pending spinal surgery and can't do much right now(no strength and pain)
Yes I start seeing a psychiatrist on the tenth.

[KMonte85]

eventually to either work in a plastic surgeons office doing medical esthetics or long term open up an organic and cruelty free dayspa. Both of which looks are extremely important, due to you there to make other women look and feel better.

so you think a woman who walks into an organic/cruelty free dayspa wants to see a painted up, fake, fried/weaved bleach blonde hair looking barbie doll behind the counter? So much for "organic"...

But that's neither here nor there, the problem is that you're self esteem isn't allowing you to suceed, to do the things you have the talent and potential to do. Hopefully you will get the counselling you need to help you see yourself the way everyone else in this world sees you. However, you have to, have to HAVE TO be willing to allow yourself to open up to the possibility that maybe, possibly, everyone is telling the truth about your natural beauty.

[sallyskellington]

CW: I'm trying I am haha I am growin6 my hair long, I hate my hair though it's curly and brown and I think it's ugly.
My friends always make fun of my body if I stopped talking to them I'd have no friends left. They are the only ones willing to put up with me.

[sallyskellington]

Haven: "Sally, I'm a guy, and to me it seems like your idea of what guys want has become more heavily informed by men's magazines than by actual men."
I know it is I read maxium obsessively online. I know its not good to do that to myself but I can't stop.

[Ashlee T.]

Yes I start seeing a psychiatrist on the tenth.

Great.

As for your friends, I'd be willing to place a large wager that you talk badly enough about yourself that they don't have to. It has probably gotten to the point where they say what you want to hear just to appease you, and right now what you want to hear is how devestatingly ugly you are, which by all standards I have ever had/seen in my entire life, is far from truth.

[sallyskellington]

See how your tune changes from one post to the next? We don't even know who we're going to be talking to when we post to you sweetie. One day its rational Sally that can sort of see things clearly, and then the next day it's irrational Sally that noone even God himself could console.

Can you see that?

No, I understand how they can be considered pretty I just think playmates are prettier.
(and I'm trying to start a log of women I think are ok looking that don't have big breast or aren't playmates)
And I know my biggest problem is I equate breast size with femininity, this is what I need to fix and what I hoping therapy will help.

[sallyskellington]

so you think a woman who walks into an organic/cruelty free dayspa wants to see a painted up, fake, fried/weaved bleach blonde hair looking barbie doll behind the counter? So much for "organic"...

But that's neither here nor there, the problem is that you're self esteem isn't allowing you to suceed, to do the things you have the talent and potential to do. Hopefully you will get the counselling you need to help you see yourself the way everyone else in this world sees you. However, you have to, have to HAVE TO be willing to allow yourself to open up to the possibility that maybe, possibly, everyone is telling the truth about your natural beauty.

Do you know I never even thought of that... That makes alot af sense actually.
And like I said I start the counseling on the tenth I'm hoping it does something I don't know how much longer I can keep ripping my guts out like this.

[sallyskellington]

BD, they always make fun of me and it's suppised to be in a joking manner but I'm kinda the butt of all the jokes. I don't think they even realize they are doing it.

[ItsASecret]

If you want some further education for plastic surgery google price and scarring. Those playmates will have some lovely lines from the butcher shop that will always be airbrushed out. Try not to think of a product of the meat shop as the definition of beauty, those women are not allowed to go out in their own skin even if they really wanted to.

[sallyskellington]

I've looked into it the best doctor in NYC it's about $10,000-$12,000. I am gonna look into the scar thing little more and also weather I would get implant lines b/c I am so small busted I'm scared my skin won't stretch right.
I will try to do that like I said trying to make a list of women that I think look ok with out big boobs.