[Ashlee T.]

YW. :-)

Karen- when you get to the Courage Network site and register, also keep in mind keeping your identification private. Find me there, under the name Ashlee. In one of my blogs, you'll see my story and see why I'm there and why I'm passionate about getting women like yourself OUT of those situations. Contact me anytime either here or there.

[karenshiver]

I registered with Courage Network, but they have not yet approved my application.

[Ashlee T.]

Great! Lyn will approve your application usually within 24 hours.

In the meantime, have you thought about applying for any jobs? Making your own money would be a big start for your freedom. You don't need his money...you can earn your own.

[karenshiver]

I have been applying for jobs.

[karenshiver]

K...Is that your real name, because if it is, I will send you a PM and let you know the changed name, thanks BD, for mentioning that.

Listen to BD..This man is controlling every aspect of your life and abusing you to keep you there...

Please.

CW

Can you change my username to hamandcheeseonwry?

[jns]

KS, you have been great advice. I have been following the thread but have had nothing extra to add. Good luck.

[karenshiver]

Brian just called me and asked me to go to a movie with him... and, did not even apologize for the way he treated me two days ago... and, did not even mention Maria... I did not answer the phone... I am not going anywhere with him.

[Ashlee T.]

Brian just called me and asked me to go to a movie with him... and, did not even apologize for the way he treated me two days ago... and, did not even mention Maria... I did not answer the phone... I am not going anywhere with him.

Good. Do not answer the door if he comes over. Rejection tends to make men like him angry. And try to remind yourself to focus less on Maria, and more on the fact that he's abusive. Even if Maria didn't exist, he's still an abuser. And if she ends up with him, he will abuse her too despite what you may think now.

I have been applying for jobs.

Great!!!


If you don't mind me asking, what happened with your husband? You mentioned he passed away, but your boyfriend would not let you go to his funeral but why weren't you with him? Just curious, if you don't want to talk about that that's fine too.

[karenshiver]

My husband and I were separated for a long time and my husband was actually engaged and living with another woman. He was an active alcoholic and I left him. I loved him so very much, but I could not cope with the alcoholism, and, I thought, if I left him, he would stop drinking and come back to me, sober. I was wrong. My husband and I were very close... even after I started dating Brian. It was all a big mistake... I can see that now... I am sorry I left my husband and I am sorry I let my anger and alcoholism come between us... after I moved to Colorado, I realized how very much I loved my husband and missed him... and, when I watched the movie, Sweet Home Alabama, I cried and cried... because I felt like the girl in the story... in the end, I realized who my twin flame was and who I really loved... my husband was the love of my life and he will also be the love of my afterlife, and, if God permits, I will spend eternity with my husband. Anyhow, my husband asked me for a divorce a year before he died... because he wanted to marry Jan... I refused to give him a divorce... I just could not let him go and I could not let my marriage go... I wanted to leave Brian and go back to my husband... and, I asked God to help cure him of his alcoholism and to help us heal our marriage... it did not happen. My husband died, last year, of alcoholism and I fell apart and had a breakdown. I never got to tell my husband goodbye, I never got to tell my husband how much I loved him, I never got to tell my husband how sorry I was that I ever left him, and I never got to tell my husband that I wanted to leave Brian... I never got to tell my husband that I wanted him to leave Jan (whom he had only known for 8 months) and to come back to me and to our marriage. He is the father of my two children and I miss him so much. I made a mistake moving to Colorado with Brian... now, it is too late... my husband is dead and I am stuck with Brian... and, I begged Brian to give me the money so I could attend my husband's funeral and be there for my children... and Brian refused to give me the money... then Brian said that the world was a better place without my husband in it and Brian told me to kill myself and join my husband in heaven. Brian is an evil man.

Just so everyone knows, I did not start dating Brian until my husband and I were separated for two years... but, still it was wrong... it was wrong to leave my marriage... it was wrong to start another relationship before my divorce was final... it was wrong to want my husband back after he had gotten engaged to another woman... everything I have done since I left my husband has been wrong... maybe I am getting what I deserve.

[karenshiver]

Brian will never have Maria... Maria is getting married soon and is retiring from the army... she is 3 months pregnant and wants to become a full-time mother... so, now, Brian has no one... he jeopardized a 10-year relationship with me for a woman who does not want him. He was seeing a therapist, but he lied to his therapist about abusing me and his therapist believed him... so much for getting help.